Ginger Rage

I'm not sure that I've been a cynic on love my entire life, but I have written confirmation that I definitely was at 17 years old and still a senior in high school. This comes in the form of a scrap book that we were supposed to complete about our lives. I loved this assignment, I loved what I did with it and I love that the teacher I had admired so much had liked it as well. I still have the scrapbook and so occasionally I look through it and at what my life had been for the first 17-18 years of my life when it was competed. There was one prompt that she gave us, "It's Love This Time". I changed it to, "It's Not Love This Time" and posted a bunch of pictures of cute celebrity boys because I had no first loves. Well, at this time in my life, I don't think I had ever been on a date before. I went on one date my senior year of high school and that was a set up through one of my friends. Let's just say we aren't married. He ended up ...

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."  Lao Tzu When I was a kid, there was a short time I lived my granny, my granddaddy and one of my older cousins. I was particularly close to this cousin, because we spent years of our lives playing Barbie dolls and later years of our lives trying to write horrible romance novels together. You may be wondering why we chose romance novels, well, this is because in her library of books she read nothing except romance novels. She had hundreds all over her room and since this was the only thing in the house to read most of the time, I read them as well. This is where I began to learn what lust and love were according to fantasy rather than the typical way through watching Disney movies. My Disney loves at this point were Lion King and Beauty and the Beast (still are), I hated the others including The Little Mermaid (not anymore).  At first I only read them because I...